Reflection Part I

*Son of the Devil* said...

Beg to differ your comment on your are at a much more worst situation than the patients. Yes, u are alone and running a fever. But the pain is momentarily. These patients have chronic diseases and suffered tons of pain that we can't decipher... Don't u feel that these patients will feel very useless that they, themselves can't take care of themselves but need the help of nurses and care givers? So I hope u do reflect abit..(sorry for being blunt).

As for a guy having multiple gfs, can tell you straight that this guy can't hide the truth from his gfs for long. No woman in this world is this stupid. Dating is a game, so does a relationship. I HATE to say that but I must admit it really is this way. I personally feel that going out with girls will make a guy feel good but not all guys do that for the sake of the HUGE ego. Likewise, some girls like the attention from many guys even though they may not like these guys...So can we say these girls are trying to boost their egos too??? So that they will look sexier. Can we fault them and just called them bitches???

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After reading what son of the devil wrote, I was reflecting on my previous writing. And yes, I totally agree with him that I was writing rubbish like a little demon. I mean, I don’t blame him for pointing that out, since that is a fact!! (there is no need for an apology) I can be super mean and selfish when my needs are not satisfied, and when I feels insecure alone. So, I shall take back my words okay??

Yup, the patients are suffering, and should I rejoice that I am not tied down by medications?? But, sickness is part of life. Sometimes inevitable, since they might be running in our blood, passed down through generations and some are just divined to suffer from it. We have to understand that nothing is fair in this world!! We are born, with the ultimate ending of death; that’s the way it works. The different lie in the degree of suffering one is entitled to…

Don’t get me wrong again. I am not being heartless because nobody wants to feel useless, tied to bed and wait for care givers to attend to their basic needs. But in every society, there deem to have people suffering. Be it poverty or sickness, it will always exist. Without people suffering, charitable organizations will never exist.

Now, may I ask, who decides the definition of suffer??

It is ambiguous and the meaning varies from person to person. Some tries to lead a normal life while others are drowning themselves in agony, robbing the sympathy of others. Since there is no clear boundary to distinguish both groups, we tend to show sympathy to both.

Again, I might be wrong because some patients really deserve our sympathy. I may still be young and healthy, at the prime of my life, and unable to apprehend what goes on with people having chronic illnesses. In fact, I have a friend who had suffered from diabetes since primary school, and she is always injecting herself with insulin, poking her 10 fingers multiple times a day to check on her glucose level. To many, that is suffering and she deserved our sympathy. But to her, a pat on the shoulder is all that she needs.

I am not implying that we should not make donations to charity organization, but money cannot solve the entire problem. The mentality of the patient is critical and important. If they choose to waste their life, buried themselves away, then no amount of money helps. And many a times, I will stop to wonder where this huge amount of money goes when the pain inflicted on the patients do not seemed to cease. The pain just wouldn’t go away, no matter how much money we donate, get it??

Of course, having the care and concern from the society is heartwarming and kids should grow up in a loving society, to become kind souls. But the image of charity gradually changes when the NKF issues stumped our country. They had shamed us on the world stage!!! It may be the only immoral case so far, but that stigma is there to stay and people will certainty has reservation when making any donations (at least for me).

Giving and taking makes a cycle. Who knows, one day I might be dying on bed and needs the help from our society??

Regarding the 2nd part, I am too tired today to think right now, will talk about it later.
Bed time!!