Another series of paper chase…
3 papers had come and went, and I feel that there were too much sacrifices made. Not enough time, not enough sleep, loss appetite, hair loss, gain weight at my buttock, panda eyes, pimples, backache, headache, handache etc…
Just like 2 days back, I was studying so hard, information overload and stressed to the limit, until I was at the verge of tears. The number of formulas to remember was way more than the amount of money I ever had. I am not exaggerating as it is really that bad!!! So stop complaining that engineers can earn more, we had to survive all this shit to make our mark…
For the past semesters, exams were more on concepts and once I get it right, I am right. I just hate memorizing, because the processing time to locate the correct formula in my brain is long. Worst of all, the exam duration is cut short to 2 hours, 4 questions choose 4.
Alright, it seemed like my brain is saturated like a sponge and nothing else could get in. Is this the sign of aging??
Besides that, the worst of the worst mistake is being careless during exam, and I had already confirmed that there were such mistakes in 2 of my papers. One of the questions required us the find the numbers of cycle to failure and I got the units wrong!! I did not convert the units during the calculation and it ended up that my value was huge, a difference of a million compared to the correct answer even though my method is correct…. This can be a fatal mistake if I am really an engineer. It is like I build a bridge and announce that it can last a century, but it collapse after a decade.
The other mistake clearly proved that I am suffering from severe cock eye. It was a question on ion doping for silicon wafer and it was clearly stated that the dopant is arsenic. Instead of reading the values for arsenic, I read the value for phosphorus. I am so dead!!!! Again, I was pretty sure my method is correct but that won’t help much either. So many marks wasted…*slap myself*
I am beginning to prepare for my last paper next Tuesday but I just can’t get started. There is something on my mind and I am feeling so confused. Because of that I felt that I am being ignored. Ignoring is the worst form of punishing, and I have to experience it now… heartache, so down…
…when TV becomes my only form of entertainment…
Gambatte Ada!!! =)
"Miles may lie between us, we're never far apart, for friendship doesn't count the miles, it's measured by the heart!"
5 comments:
Hey thanks for the message you left in my blog. All the best for your last paper!
Yishi
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Hey dun worri, I'm sure u will do fine. 2 more exams to go for u, cheer up!!!
I'm dieing alreadi also...hahaha
SP
When the school changes its policy, it's usually the students who suffer. Having 3 papers in a week and 2hrs paper is definitely a killer. Don't blame yourself...You just happen to be in the transition period.
As for carelessness, it is just part and parcel of life... Can see that you expect alot from yourself which is good. But you also gives yourself undue stress.
Remember, when you do not get A doesn't mean you are lousier. It is just that you write slower and press calculator more slowly.
Ok, my 5 cents worth of comments may be crappy or rubbish. But the gist of it is to urge you not to worry. After moderation i believe you will do pretty well...
Thank you all for the encouragement!!!!! I won't be unhappy for long, anyway what's done cannot be undone... no point crying over spilled milk as i only have myself to blame, right??
Anyway, there won't be exams for the next half year as i will be on IA!!!!
Happy holiday!!!!
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